Almost unrecognizable with a new hairdo and some new plastic surgery, the rarely red carpet ready, Courtney Love arrives late to the ‘Wall Street: Money Never Sleeps’ premiere at the Ziegfeld Theatre in New York City last night.

Courtney Love opens up to VH1 in a new special Behind the Music: Courtney Love, which will premiere on Monday, June 21st at 8:00PM. She talks about her band, drug use, and much more in the new, candid interview. Check out clips from the interview below!

Courtney on pain….
“Maybe I’m deeply wounded. Maybe that’s why screaming feels so f**king good.”

Courtney on anger….
“I have to express my rage, I’m really angry. I look at audiences and I like what I see, and when I say f**k you I say it in a loving manner and they say f**k you right back.”

Courtney on fame…
“I get this sh*t because I’m the only f**king chick standing. And I’m a crazy b*tch, and I’m a widow and it makes me sick. It’s f**king pathetic. Stop it. Seriously, or I’ll f**king kill you.”

Courtney on Hole…
“My goal for Hole was stupid. I said, ‘this band is gonna be ten times bigger than Sonic Youth, but not as big as Jane’s Addiction.’ What was the ‘but’ for? It’s like a f**king curse! That’s so stupid. The gods were listening when I said that. I could have said, ‘this band is gonna be ten times bigger than Sonic Youth and the Beatles.’ And that’s where we’d be right now.”

Courtney on heroin…
“I’m not saying there weren’t a few times before I got pregnant that I enjoyed taking heroin, cause I did enjoy it at some point. But I stopped enjoying it damn fast.”

Courtney on pregnancy…
“They begged me to get an abortion, begged me to get an abortion. I knew full well that my zygote was fine. Alright? Full f**king well. So I was like, ‘Suck it. Okay? Seriously suck it.’”

Courtney on her critics…
“It’s really hard sometimes when everyone in the world is picking on you. And that’s what started happening. Everyone in the world started picking on me. It really, really hurt my feelings—it was horrible. It took a long time to adapt to it and it—that was trauma. That was traumatic. I didn’t ask to be hated, I just don’t mind being a b*tch.”

Courtney on Trent Reznor…
“Me and Trent had kind of torrid whatever you want to call it. And then he said in Details that my alleged pregnancy would have to be the immaculate conception. So I said in Spin that don’t call your band Nine Inch Nails if you have a three inch one. My band’s called Hole. It’s not called Little Hole, it’s not called Big Hole, it’s not called Flopping Nonie, it’s not called Tiny Rosebud, it’s not called Barbie P*ssy, it’s called Hole. He’s still mad at me about it. Dude, that was the 90s, what the f**k?”

Courtney on Rohypnol…
“So I was asking somebody ‘why does Rohypnol have such a bad rap?’ And they said ‘horrible memory loss.’ Well that’s what happens when I meet somebody and I don’t know if hate them or like them or what but I know that I did something — did I f**k them? I don’t know—Rohypnol.”

Courtney Love strolled around the Soho area of New York on yesterday with her realtor. It’s rumored that Courtney will be buying a new home in the area but that has been in the works for about two years now.

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She looks like crap!  Yikes!