Recovering drug and alcohol addict Colin Farrell is struggling to stay sober – and constantly fights the urge to down booze and pop pills.

The Hollywood star checked into rehab in 2005, fearing his addictions would kill him if he carried on his hedonistic lifestyle. And while the Miami Vice star has been clean since, he frequently toys with the idea of indulging his passion for alcohol and narcotics for one night only.

However, Farrell – with the help of past experience – is fully aware one night of excess would quickly lead him back down the path of destruction. He says, “There are times when something’s happened and I’ll get down. I’m still powerless today. If I started drinking now, who knows? It would probably start slowly but I’d be f**ked, fairly quickly. I just try to remember where I was. “I’d f**king love to be able to drink. I’d f**king love to have a couple of nights f**king howling at the moon. I miss howling at the moon. And not just have a drink, I’d love to be able to pop some f**king OxyContin or some Percocet (both painkillers) and know that it’s not going to become a f**king habit. Turn on, tune in, drop out, I’d love it.”

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Movie star Colin Farrell has confirmed that he’ll be among the stars acting out the scenes that Heath Ledger never got to shoot for his final film. He confessed that it will be an “incredibly painful tribute”.

Farrell, along with Jude Law, and Johnny Depp will help director Terry Gilliam complete the film he started with Heath. The superstar trio will pick up the role Ledger was playing in The Imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus before he accidentally overdosed last month.

Farrell admits that he was flattered to be asked to help Gilliam complete Ledger’s last film. He said, “I will be honored to be part of that. It makes me feel uncomfortable to think about it too much and to get into it really here, but it’s an incredibly painful honor…..and an honor I wasn’t bestowed (on me), but an honor nonetheless. It’s about getting Heath’s work out there….He’s too good for any of his work not to be seen, you know, and I’m really keen and looking forward to doing it and just doing the best job I can do.”

The film, about a magical traveling theater, also features movie veteran Christopher Plummer. Production on the London set has been suspended since just before Ledger’s death.

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Colin Farrell was at a press junket at the Regency hotel in New York and was talking about his new movie, In Bruges, as well as the Golden Compass. As he talked about his other movie, Pride & Glory, he put flicked his cigarette ashes into his water cup, and afterwards drank out of it.

Someone couldn’t have gotten him another cup?

Hot – or not?

Colin FarrellC at the New York Premiere of In Bruges at the IFC Centre in New York City on February 4th.

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Colin Farrell at the Sundance Film Festival – ‘In Bruges’ premiere in Park City, Utah on January 17th.

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