Kendra Wilkinson loves her son, Hank Jr., but according to In Touch, the reality star is scared to have another baby because of the postpartum depression she suffered after giving birth in 2009.
“I was living under a gray cloud, and lost who I was,” Kendra, 26, tells In Touch, adding that at her worst she felt as if she â€œhad nothing to live for.â€
And Kendra says after the delivery, she struggled to get her body back. “It took me two years to not only get my body back, but to feel like myself again.”
Not only is the star desperate to avoid another breakdown, but she worries that her husband Hank Baskett’s uncertain career path renders a second child impossible.
“I’m not going to say it’s easy,” she confesses of being the breadwinner for the retired football player-turned-aspiring actor, 29. “But I’m willing to work harder so that he can find what he wants to do.”
How many of you moms had postpartum depression? I definitely had it with both of my boys – but it didn’t last very long. Couple weeks, maybe a month. But it IS the worst feeling on the planet. I’ve never felt depression like that before, and hope I never do again! I think what makes it so difficult – is you know as a mom – you SHOULD be happy about your new baby. It’s just so hard!