How many of you caught Demi Lovato’s MTV documentary, “Demi Lovato: Stay Strong,” earlier this week? I watched it, and I thought she did an amazing job. It was a very moving, interesting documentary. The singer/actress opened up about the lows that led her to seek treatment in 2010. The documentary follows Lovato as she returns on tour, celebrates her first post-rehab Thanksgiving, and visits the Illinois treatment facility where she lived for several months.
While her success came easy, Lovato was fighting an inner struggle that she didn’t know how to fix. “I had so many issues that were underneath, that needed to be taken care of, and we kept putting Band-Aids over it. It literally drove me insane,” she recalls. “I was not eating, and purging, and self-harming. It was really difficult to be able to stop.”
In between her confessions, fans are treated to behind-the-scenes footage of the star as she preps for her first tour since 2010, when she left her trek with the Jonas Brothers early to enter rehab. She notes that this tour will help her “face her fears” about hitting the road. “Without music, it would be really, really hard to survive and really, really hard to stay in recovery,” she adds.
“Stay Strong” is also about her fans and the relationship she share with them. “My favorite part of touring is the connection I make with my fans: It’s me and them,” she explains. “We’re strangers coming together over music, and I think that’s so beautiful.”
But, it’s also about her struggles, then and now, and her focus to stay on track. “This is a daily battle that I will face for the rest of my life,” she says. “Everyone kind of made me a role model, and I hated that. I was partying, I was self-medicating. I was always stressing out. I felt like I was living a lie. I felt guilt and shame. I decided to take it out on myself. I harmed myself. It was my way of taking my own shame and my own guilt out on myself, and I was just depressed.”
While she could have kept her demons and struggles to herself, she says, “Creativity is what helps me escape a lot of my inner demons. Why not air all my secrets? Why not share my story because some people need to hear it?”
As the special wraps, Demi sings her triumphant single “Skyscraper” and says, “I don’t think I’m fixed. People think that you’re like a car in a body shop. You go in, they fix you, and you’re out. It takes constant fixing.”
While there will always be a struggle, one thing is new for Demi: She can now have fun and focus on herself. “Now, the tour is over. I want to be spontaneous,” she notes, explaining that while she might get days off, her recovery doesn’t. “I don’t think there is the finish line. I think you just keep going, until you retire. But even then, I’ll just continue to be working because that’s what I love to do.”
I’m sure MTV will re-air this special several times over the next couple weeks. You owe it to yourself to check it out!
Here are some new pictures of Demi leaving Sirius XM in NYC.
Photos: Fame/Flynet, MTV